Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Scales and Zeroes
A few days ago, I bought a dress from American Eagle that fit perfectly. I dare say it’s my new favorite dress. This isn’t just because the price was right, but the size was too, a “0”. I wanted to run out of the dressing room screaming when the four and then the two were too big. Fantastic! I was beaming as Adam put the dress on the counter and said, “We’ll definitely take this.” There’s nothing more pleasing than true personal success.
My weight has been an issue for a long time as most of you know. I’m incredibly insecure because at one point I was a little on the “heavy” side. Looking back I hate myself for being so hard on myself about my love handles. I especially loath myself for allowing so many people to convince me that I was so disgusting when I never wore over a size 8 or a 10 on a bad day.
This recent pleasure of weighing in at 115 (a weight I haven’t seen on the scale since I was 15) made me want to scream from the roof tops. It’s sad that I hesitated. By losing all of this weight I felt that I was proving everyone right who ever questioned my beauty because of my weight. So I want to tell you that it was easy for me to lose the weight when I started to love myself and found a man who loved me no matter what my body looked like because I felt like we deserved it.
My wedding dress is a size “4”. I’m sure at this point they will need to alter the waist. I asked Adam if I could write a facebook status that said, “Dear x-boyfriend who broke up with me because of my ‘weight’, My wedding dress is a size 4 and I’m marrying a man far more deserving of a girl that size.” We decided that probably wasn’t appropriate, but I couldn’t resist to share it with you!
Thanks for reading and celebrating my success with me!